Remember how this was your ringtone for me...before you even knew I bought the CD and declaired it my personal theme song....I'll always be your crazy bitch....love you baby...

Crazy Bitch

All right!

Break me down, you got a lovely face
We're going to your place
And now you got to freak me out
Scream so loud, getting fuckin' laid
You want me to stay, but I got to make my way

Hey
You're a crazy bitch
But you fuck so good, I'm on top of it
When I dream, I'm doing you all night
Scratches all down my back to keep me right on

Hey
You're a crazy bitch
But you fuck so good, I'm on top of it
When I dream, I'm doing you all night
Scratches all down my back to keep me right on

Take it off, the paper is your game
You jump in bed with fame
Another one night paid in full, uh
You're so fine, it won't be a loss
Cashing in the rocks, just to get you face to face

Hey
You're a crazy bitch
But you fuck so good, I'm on top of it
When I dream, I'm doing you all night
Scratches all down my back to keep me right on

Hey
You're a crazy bitch
But you fuck so good, I'm on top of it
When I dream, I'm doing you all night
Scratches all down my back to keep me right on

Get the video
Fuck you so good
Get the video
Fuck you so good

Crazy bitch
Crazy bitch
Crazy...bitch

Hey
You're a crazy bitch
But you fuck so good, I'm on top of it
When I dream, I'm doing you all night
Scratches all down my back to keep me right on

Hey
You're a crazy bitch
But you fuck so good, I'm on top of it
When I dream, I'm doing you all night
Scratches all down my back, come on

Baby girl
You want it all
To be a star
You'll have to go down
Take it off
No need to talk
You're crazy
But I like the way you fuck me

Hey
You're a crazy bitch
But you fuck so good, I'm on top of it
When I dream, I'm doing you all night
Scratches all down my back to keep me right on

Hey
You're a crazy bitch
But you fuck so good, I'm on top of it
When I dream, I'm doing you all night
Scratches all down my back to keep me right on
You keep me right on

You're crazy
But I like the way you fuck me

I knew there was something wrong when I called him the next night(I can't NOT call him) when I couldn't get a hold of him...he wasn't online either....Tuesday....same thing...I was worried about him. Wednesday I called him and he answered...he said things were not good...that he had been in jail...and that his wife knew about us.

I'm not sure how she found out exactly. Somehow she got into his email on the computer they shared....and read our emails.

He told me what had happened that put him in jail was not a big deal and he would deal with it....
When I left him on Sunday...he went home to his kids...and was in the kitchen with his 14 year old daughter...she came to him and put her arms around him and gave him a hug....and asked him if he missed mom...he said he did...and he hugged her and put his hands on her back...and rubbed her back under her belly t-shirt...she told him...*don't...*(like a teenager would) and pulled away...and as she backed away from him, his hand brushed across the side of her breast. She later told this to her mother on the phone....which was what they were discussing when I had called....and on that same day...she had got into his email account and saw our emails....and discovered our affair....and booked a flight home.
When she got home she called the police and reported that he touched their daughter inapropriatly...the laws in the state I live in are very vague on sexual molestation....when the police asked him if he touched her...he thought *no big deal..* and admited to it. He didn't want to call his daughter a liar...and never having ANY prior criminal record...other than a underage smoking ticket at age 17...he didn't know that maybe he shouldn't say anything....who would have thought it would go the way it did?
They arrested him on the spot and took him to jail...and booked him on sexual...assault charges (I think). He really didn't think much would come of it....being that he was NOT a pedifile....it was just a accidental brush up against her. He didn't grab her, rub her...nothing else.
His wife was PISSED off to say the least....she was hell bent over his affair and posted about it on *our* self help sight...and wanted him to pay.
I have to say...that as a woman....if a man cheated on me the way he did with me...I would probably kill him....so in a way I can't blame her....but she really messed up his life.
A lot happened in the next couple weeks. He got a lawyer...a apartment...a court date was set but it was a ways off. I can't remember all that he had to do...but he was ordered to take a evaluation to gage exactly how much of a threat he was to society...I think he had a counsiler...and a very thorough battery of tests that included the wires hooked up to his penis and listening to situations of child molestation that made him so ill that when they did give him a normal adult woman situation...he didn't even get arroused. He registered zero on that test.
In the mean time....we started spending more and more time together. Mostly sexual....a lot of long days and nights in his apartment....that I cherish...we got to know each other better and better.
I didn't stay with him and just turn a blind eye to what was going on....I must say....I have 3 daughters of my own(and a son) and am extremely overprotective of them...I don't believe pedifiles can be cured. I think they should be shot...hung....put to death. If a man molested one of my kids....I would kill him and spend the rest of my life in prison. So I did question...and ask myself *what if*....and read the evidence and the charges. He was charged with....and this is exactly as the newspaper printed it...*touching a female minor above the waist*
He didn't molest anyone....didn't rape anyone....wasn't attracted to little children....he hugged his daughter the wrong way....and had a affair....and now he was going to pay for it.

What did I say? The day of reckoning? I guess thats not exactly the day of reckoning...but it was a....important day in this story...
I have to say....theres a lot of details I'm leaving out...so much to say about this man that I came to be really really good friends with. We clicked..bonded...and had a mutual unspoken understanding....fucking him was like fucking myself....there were no strings...no pressure for more....no conditions on the sex...
One thing I liked about him was that he was such a good father to his kids. He took them places....spent time with them...he was a dog breeder and trainer and I remember him taking his older kids to...a self esteem class...
When we met...his wife was depressed and spent alot of time in bed....before she left for her trip out of state...he made a comment to me in a email that he had to put her on her stomach and think about me...just to fuck her. A email she ended up reading...lol...okay...NOT funny.....yes it is....lol!
My husband was out of town so much...and I had told him over and over what I needed from him. I couldn't sleep at night and he would be asleep in his motel room earily...and would be mad when I would call....he didn't want to talk. My marriage was good for about 2 weks and then he told me all the things I needed to change. I should have left then...but didn't.
My new man...had his own business...self employed...responsible....not a drinker or into drugs...just your average hardworking guy trying to provide for his family.
Neither of us wanted a divorce when we started seeing each other...but he wasn't very smart about hiding it....(sweetie....you dumbshit...I wish you would have been better at hiding it...*sigh*)
We had met in the motel on Saturday...wish I could get descriptive about that put it's rated XXX...can I write that here?...I can close my eyes and see the room...and every move we made...
The next day was Sunday...I really really wanted to see him...I think I told my husband I was going shopping...and drove over the hill to see him...he was working in his shop for a few hours...I picked him up and we drove around...and got a frosty...and went to a secluded place and parked....where it got pretty hot and heavy...
If I could go back...there are SO many things i would have done different. Well, just one thing. I would have got him off. However I had to...I would have made sure he was sexually satisfied. But I was pressed for time and didn't know if my husband(only home for 2 days and I had avoided sex the night before)would want to have sex with me. I couldn't be with another man and then go home and be with him...not on the same day.
Pretty hot and heavy....I know I was driving him crazy...we stopped short of having sex and I had to go....and his kids were calling him...he was still Mr.Mom....I dropped him off at work and went home.
When I called him later that night....his son answered his cell phone. He said he was *dealing with something with his wife* and he would call me later. When he did call me back...he didn't say much about what happened...he's really private about some things...we talked about meeting later on that week and that was the last I talked to him that night.

...Things moved so quickly it's hard to believe it happened in such a short period of time...Jan 5th when you first joined our *self help* web site. I'm sure I met you through email that first week. You sent me some funny emails on Jan 11th and 13th....it was the 17th the first night we met in 3D...one of the best and most memorable nights of my life.

We spent the next week on the phone or net as much as possible...learning more about each other and talking about how hot the first night was....we had to meet again. His wife was going out of state because her grandmother was ill and dying...so he had the next wekend pretty much free....other than playing Mr. Mom to his 3 kids. The two older kids were hers from her previous marriage...their father wasn't interested in being a responsible parent and my love asked him if he could adopt them as his own. He loved those little kids....they were 3 and 5 then I think...they were really little. He gave their dad a 12pk of beer and he agreed that he would sign his rights away to his kids.
They had one child together...a son...and had been married for eleven years. His son was about 8 when we met...his older kids...boy...just turning 16 and daughter just turned 14. I'm not double checking those numbers but they should be pretty close anyway.
They're 16 and 19 today...
Anyway...he was taking care of his kids and they were old enough to be left unsupervised for a while....so on Saturday I said I was going to work...and I did for a few hours...but when he got into town I left and met him at a local motel for a couple hours...it was another VERY memorable day....images forever engraved in my mind.
That was a Saturday and the next day...Sunday....was the day of reckoning...

I do this alot...I overreact when I don't have all the facts. Sorry baby...you were in the hospital with your son that night I couldn't get ahold of you. And if the exwife knows you're even talking to me....she will make seeing your son impossible....as we know...this can be done. Thus your phone was turned off.
Sorry about your bike....stolden out of the back of your truck. I was looking forward to mt.biking with you in the near future.
So....finally after a night in the hospital....I wonder what his allergic reaction was to? hmmm....
So....I still have your $147 pillow....and I don't want to give it back...it smells soooo good...
You can still be the keeper of the letters....and the picture for now...my love....*sigh*
It was so good to talk to you finally....and I'm glad that you still love me and still want to see me and be with me(in a perfect world)...someday....it'll happen...
I asked one thing from you on the phone last night. That was to valadate my love for you and the feelings I have....thank you for understanding that I didn't really need valadation as much as I needed acknowledgement....I'm glad you understand how much I love you...and that I'M STILL HERE! Focus on your son and getting your probation changed so you can see your kids and deal with the ex.....that does need to come first. My love isn't going anywhere.
Remember when I sent you this song when you left me the first time....okay....when you went to prison..(yes.. people reading this...this is very complicated..)All we need is patience...

(1..2...1,2,3,4)
Shed a tear 'cause I'm missing you
I'm still alright to smile
Girl, I think about you every day now
Was a time when I wasn't sure
But you set my mind at ease
There is no doubt you're in my heart now
Said woman take it slow
It'll work itself out fine
All we need is just a little patience
Said sugar make it slow
And we'll come together fine
All we need is just a little patience
(inhale) Patience...
Ooh, oh, yeah

Sit here on the stairs
'Cause I'd rather be alone
If I can't have you right now, I'll wait dear
Sometimes, I get so tense
But I can't speed up the time
But you know, love, there's one more thing to consider
Said woman take it slow
Things will be just fine
You and I'll just use a little patience
Said sugar take the time
'Cause the lights are shining bright
You and I've got what it takes to make it
We won't fake it, Oh never break it
'Cause I can't take it

...little patience, mm yeah, ooh yeah,
Need a little patience, yeah
Just a little patience, yeah
Some more pati... (ence, yeah)
I've been walking these streets at night
Just trying to get it right (Need some patience, yeah)
It's hard to see with so many around
You know I don't like being stuck in a crowd (Could use some patience, yeah)
And the streets don't change but maybe the name
I ain't got time for the game
'Cause I need you (Patience, yeah)
Yeah, yeah well I need you
Oh, I need you (Take some patience)
Whoa, I need you (Just a little patience is all we need)
Ooh, this ti- me....

I'm going to eat the rest of the chocolate chip pecan cookies I bought you....I bought 4 and theres only one box left...I'm going to enjoy them....lol