....to my lover....

I really wanted to see you today.....this week.....but it looks like it's not going to happen....

My husband packed up and left today....I see my lawyer next week....things are moving in the right direction.....towards us...

I love you with all my heart....Happy Valentines Day....

I hope we get to spend the next one together.....

Just when I start to wonder.....if what I'm feeling is real....you come a long and show me that it is...and even though it was just a conversation on the phone....we never fail to connect.....and we always seem to throw another log on the low burning flames....

The heat....and the passion.....amaze me....and your doubts and fears finally revealed to me make me more certian about us than ever....and I just want you to know....that you will be safe with me...I promise I won't let anyone hurt you.....I will protect you with everything I have....and I think if I can just convince you to start moving my direction....(pack it up and move to town baby!)...we can be so close......and spend so much time together....and it will be worth it.

I'm glad you pulled over to talk last night....it realy isn't safe to drive with your cock in your hand...

Some people will never have the love we have.....and no one will get in the way of our love....no one....

Alicia Keys....

I just want you close
Where you can stay forever
You can be sure
That it will only get better

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry 'cause
Everything's going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is everything's going to be alright

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

When the rain is pouring down
And my heart is hurting
You will always be around
This I know for certain

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry 'cause
Everything's going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is everything's going to be alright

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel

I know some people search the world
To find something like what we have
I know people will try try to divide something so real
So till the end of time I'm telling you there is no one

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

So.....you freaked me out with the *We need to talk about life* thing....if you get your live-in gf pregnant or marry her(my fear...not your plan).....that will suck for us....funny I don't feel like it would change anything though....and last night I told you why....
Because what we have between us is different....we don't have to lie to each other. You have to lie to her about who you are....and about me....but you don't ever have to lie to me about anything....or anyone...together we can be true to each other....to ourselves....and to our hearts.
So...you have feelings for the new girl....thats to be expected...but will you ever be able to tell her everything......no.
I don't have anyone other than you that I can tell everything to either....and still be excepted...
It was good to see you last night on your way out of jail....I'm sorry you have to spend weekends in there...wish I could go with you.
I LOVE YOU!!!!
Can't wait to see you soon baby.....

Merry Merry Christmas to my lover......who is spending weekends in jail. *sigh* ......what can I do....

It was great seing you last week!....meeting you after work and driving up the hill to the spot where we first met.....and spending a hour together....

You know I'm not extremely happy with you over what happened the friday before my birthday.....when you said you could probably see me but then didn't text or call me....I don't know wtf you're thinking with all that....I know that.... yeah......you know I'm not stupid......but I'm not going anywhere.....you can't drive me away that easy....I love you too much. I'm still here baby....

It was good to see you on your way into the jail anyway....even if all we did do was yell at each other...I know what you're going through is tough.....and I know you're trying to push me away....I know you really do like your girlfriend....but she will never be me....

I miss you.....I'm excited to see what the new year brings for us....(((((My Lover))))))