...Things moved so quickly it's hard to believe it happened in such a short period of time...Jan 5th when you first joined our *self help* web site. I'm sure I met you through email that first week. You sent me some funny emails on Jan 11th and 13th....it was the 17th the first night we met in 3D...one of the best and most memorable nights of my life.

We spent the next week on the phone or net as much as possible...learning more about each other and talking about how hot the first night was....we had to meet again. His wife was going out of state because her grandmother was ill and dying...so he had the next wekend pretty much free....other than playing Mr. Mom to his 3 kids. The two older kids were hers from her previous marriage...their father wasn't interested in being a responsible parent and my love asked him if he could adopt them as his own. He loved those little kids....they were 3 and 5 then I think...they were really little. He gave their dad a 12pk of beer and he agreed that he would sign his rights away to his kids.
They had one child together...a son...and had been married for eleven years. His son was about 8 when we met...his older kids...boy...just turning 16 and daughter just turned 14. I'm not double checking those numbers but they should be pretty close anyway.
They're 16 and 19 today...
Anyway...he was taking care of his kids and they were old enough to be left unsupervised for a while....so on Saturday I said I was going to work...and I did for a few hours...but when he got into town I left and met him at a local motel for a couple hours...it was another VERY memorable day....images forever engraved in my mind.
That was a Saturday and the next day...Sunday....was the day of reckoning...

I do this alot...I overreact when I don't have all the facts. Sorry baby...you were in the hospital with your son that night I couldn't get ahold of you. And if the exwife knows you're even talking to me....she will make seeing your son impossible....as we know...this can be done. Thus your phone was turned off.
Sorry about your bike....stolden out of the back of your truck. I was looking forward to mt.biking with you in the near future.
So....finally after a night in the hospital....I wonder what his allergic reaction was to? hmmm....
So....I still have your $147 pillow....and I don't want to give it back...it smells soooo good...
You can still be the keeper of the letters....and the picture for now...my love....*sigh*
It was so good to talk to you finally....and I'm glad that you still love me and still want to see me and be with me(in a perfect world)...someday....it'll happen...
I asked one thing from you on the phone last night. That was to valadate my love for you and the feelings I have....thank you for understanding that I didn't really need valadation as much as I needed acknowledgement....I'm glad you understand how much I love you...and that I'M STILL HERE! Focus on your son and getting your probation changed so you can see your kids and deal with the ex.....that does need to come first. My love isn't going anywhere.
Remember when I sent you this song when you left me the first time....okay....when you went to prison..(yes.. people reading this...this is very complicated..)All we need is patience...

(1..2...1,2,3,4)
Shed a tear 'cause I'm missing you
I'm still alright to smile
Girl, I think about you every day now
Was a time when I wasn't sure
But you set my mind at ease
There is no doubt you're in my heart now
Said woman take it slow
It'll work itself out fine
All we need is just a little patience
Said sugar make it slow
And we'll come together fine
All we need is just a little patience
(inhale) Patience...
Ooh, oh, yeah

Sit here on the stairs
'Cause I'd rather be alone
If I can't have you right now, I'll wait dear
Sometimes, I get so tense
But I can't speed up the time
But you know, love, there's one more thing to consider
Said woman take it slow
Things will be just fine
You and I'll just use a little patience
Said sugar take the time
'Cause the lights are shining bright
You and I've got what it takes to make it
We won't fake it, Oh never break it
'Cause I can't take it

...little patience, mm yeah, ooh yeah,
Need a little patience, yeah
Just a little patience, yeah
Some more pati... (ence, yeah)
I've been walking these streets at night
Just trying to get it right (Need some patience, yeah)
It's hard to see with so many around
You know I don't like being stuck in a crowd (Could use some patience, yeah)
And the streets don't change but maybe the name
I ain't got time for the game
'Cause I need you (Patience, yeah)
Yeah, yeah well I need you
Oh, I need you (Take some patience)
Whoa, I need you (Just a little patience is all we need)
Ooh, this ti- me....

I'm going to eat the rest of the chocolate chip pecan cookies I bought you....I bought 4 and theres only one box left...I'm going to enjoy them....lol

....I sort of know what I'm going to do....that makes it premeditated....lol....I'm going to call you a million more times and leave you a million more messages....tonight....nah....I'm going to go tanning and then I'm going to work out and watch american idol.
BUT...tommorow....I'm going to come and see you. I'm going to be there at your house when you get off work. Thats if you don't call me tonight....we'll see...you get off work in just a few minutes....
If you don't call me tonight I'm going to come and ask you for our letters....I know you're the *keeper* of our letters....but I think if you're going to move on with your life....and if you don't call me....you don't respect me and the letters must not mean a whole lot to you.
I'm going to ask for the picture back too...I'm not going to ask...I'm just going to take it. You don't need it....you're free...I'm still in my prison....and I need the eagle escape more than you do. So fuck you.
Love you baby.....your Angel...(with horns)

...our first song? The first of many....I just heard it on the radio today...I miss you swetie. I wish we could go back to those first couple weeks....and relive them.

Sex and Candy

Hangin' round downtown by myself
And I had so much time
To sit and think about myself
And then there she was
Like double cherry pie
Yeah there she was
Like disco superfly
I smell sex and candy here
Who's that lounging in my chair
Who's that casting devious stares
In my direction
Mama this surely is a dream

Hangin' round downtown by myself
And I had too much caffeine
And I was thinkin' 'bout myself
And then there she was
In platform double suede
Yeah there she was
Like disco lemonade
I smell sex and candy here
Who's that lounging in my chair
Who's that casting devious stares
In my direction
Mama this surely is a dream
Mama this surely is a dream
I smell sex and candy here
Who's that lounging in my chair
Who's that casting devious stares
In my direction
Mama this surely is a dream
Mama this surely is a dream
Yeah mama this must be my dream

...I've never experienced anything so intense...I think he knew what I looked like...but I had never met him in 3D before...he sent me a pic but of course it looked nothing like him. He lived just over the hill from me...about 20 miles away. So it was funny we met online. I can totally admit to seducing him....the bad thing....we were both married. I know....that never happens on the net!
We got to talking one night....and I said something about pole dancing and a disco ball....and somehow we decided to meet. He had his own business and he worked odd hours...or he started to after he met me anyway. He painted and restored cars for local dealorships...so he could say he was working late.
My husband worked out of town all the time....he was gone more weeks than he was home....at least M-F...so I could sneak out and meet him somewhere. It was a really foggy night....and I could barely see in front of me driving to the local gas station. He didn't know it was only a couple miles from my house...he didn't know my last name...all he had was a few weeks conversation online and a pic of me...
We had a understanding to meet and see if there was a physical attraction...when he pulled up next to me on the side of the gas station....and got out....I thought he was okay....he was do-able...nothing spectacular....not Tom Cruise....but I could do that.
He gave me a rose(made me laugh inside....how stupid to bring me a rose...like I could take it home...nice thought though...) and gave me a kiss....and I jumped into his car(later found out it was a customers..lol) and directed him to a spot on a hill...that actually almost overlooked my house...
I told him I wanted to see it and when he unzipped it was like Christmas morning...I relived that moment with him over and over...it always makes me smile....
Holy schlong....anyway....he just wanted to fuck me so we didn't waste much time....it lasted forever....front and back seat....every position you can imagine...I had bruises for the next week as if I had been in a car accident. It was awesome.
It was only supposed to be a one time thing....that we would totally keep to ourselves....but the next day there he was online. He sent me a pic of a dozen roses and told me he respected me....lol...we became good friends quickly...and decided we would meet again asap....well....you know what happens when you play with fire...
(here I am)